today I'm sitting in the sun
drinking wine left over from when my sister
tried to impress a danish girl

it's a good day

I'm not nice enough to end up last.

# ?

you think being alone
is for the strong minded
you are lonely
you think that makes you strong.

your rebellion
against her childish refuse to convert
is that of a three-yr-old
refusing to eat the fruits
put out on the table
to be shoved down our throats

we are blessed
the gods we invented had told us so
but the hell we created for others
is at out front door

it brings three gifts
of hate,
doubt,
and time off
in a closed psychiatric facility

you are blessed.
you are strong.
you are alone.

ugliness

it was so ugly
how you left yesterday
you had to go out of town
on a crusade, a search
for your own amusement
as ugly as my half-arsed
anger, and not so original
love of self-rightiousness.
am I a woman now?
have I excelled at the strategy
of the silence treatment
am I yr woman now?
have I earnt the gift
of commoness
that will declare me queen
of the microwaves owens
and dirty dishes..
am I ugly now?

no one can beat
ny cooler than thou
attitude
since nerd was made the new cool
you all look like me
in elementary school

(I'm so ahead of you)

Demands on sales

There's a demand
after demands
so we've been manufacturing
must have:s
We're selling a lot
of must do, should do:s
we feel bad for you.

We're selling schedulers
to make you believe
there's time for an hour's panic
on Tuesday,
between three and four am.

rerun night

My fifth beer
watching CSI reruns
Las Vegas
not that Miami crap
I'm feeling a little down
but I forgot to take my meds today
Tomorrow will be better
the sun always lights things up
and I've got plenty of projects
a painting, handmade jewelry
and that poem
about the demands
Tomorrow's always better
and it'll be at least two days
'till my next fifth beer
and maybe then
it'll be M.A.S.H instead