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jag träffade ditt ex idag
på tunnelbanan på vägen hem
hon förstod och undrade hur allting var
jag sa att jag borde nog ha sett det komma
att gå från den enda till en av många

jag ringde upp mitt ex idag
efter att jag hade kommit hem
hon förstod och undrade hur allting var
sen sa hon att hon borde ha sett det komma
när hon gick från den enda till en av många

så jag ringde upp dig idag
och när du frågade hur allting var
sa jag att jag nu förstår begreppet karma
i den här världen är vi alla den enda
och för de flesta bara en av många

All of Me

I gave you all of me
now I just wish you'd leave me a note
telling me it will be alright
but we'll never wake up on the other side
of this, the longest night
i can't see how life will be now
but I know from expreience
time will just keep passing by
I really wish you'd give me a call
so I can ask you all the questions
that have no answers in this world
now I'll be just another one
I know and I understand
I really held you close
and I did know you
you sat through this lesson
and now you're out of the other side
i understand, I was just another one
I know you'll find your way through
back to where it all begins again, sometime
with someone else, and I'm sure she'll understand
when you go through to the other side
of another lesson learnt
I really did know you
and I gave you all I knew







bitter version after nine:

you took all of me, all I had
and I gave it all away, everytime
I fought in all of your fights
I held you through your every darkest nights
but it wasn't enough
oh, that's just too though
guess I got in the way of your line of flight
and now all my efforts useless
I thought we were in love
but it was just hell in a fancy dress
I'm watching the fat lady sing
and the bitterness stings
as I take of the engegemant ring

uppdatering på två språk

1.
it can't have been me,
she said
I was out of my mind,
totally
I was doing alright
a little wierd but just fine
how did I end up here
scars on my arms
and pills to spare

I was a cute little girl
in ponytails and a striped dress
I was a shy little girl
how can I be such a mess

don't blame it on my parents
they're nice, they're alright
don't blame it on biology
my sister is doing just fine

this can't be me,
she said
it just shouldn't be
I was a cute little girl once
without a dark cloud
hovering over me
just a shy little girl once
I garantee
missing two front teeth
and with a bruised knee

..I was doing alright
a little wierd but just fine
how did I end up here
scars on my arms
and pills to spare

2.
I drink too much coffee
smoke too many cigarettes
with the taste of last nights beer
still lingering on my tongue
I keep asking what I'm doing here
but it's the only world I know
with my paint-stained,
nicotine-glided fingers
I used to think it was cool
now they're calling on the phone
and they're texting me messages
asking what I'm doing tonight
there's a new club downtown
think we should check it out
so I leave the canvas, leave the dream
and head out for my funeral
lets hope it's atleast obscene
'cause we sit in these bars,
where the beer is cheap
we talk of life and art
and try to be funny
if we can't be smart
have you seen my coffin
I've painted it in the colour of your lips
and someone tagged it on facebook
as the judas and the king
have you seen my coffin
crafted in the latest style
yeah you know it's so DIY
how can we be so broke
and still afford the beer
will we ever even do,
what we've been talking about here
another cigarette and another dream
another cup of coffee and another scheme
welcome to my funeral
atleast it's obscene

3.
Min brorsa säger att allt går med tejp
min pappa säger latex fog

men jag vet,
att allt går
så länge jag har dig

4,
Jag letar förgäves
efter tankar värda att sägas högt
tystnaden fyller min mun
och skapar beläggningar på min tunga
inte ens presidents
nya tandborste
kan ta bort

vi möts, hejar och kramas
och jag letar förgäves
efter tankar värda att sägas högt

dina föräldrars tom

bristen på dina fingrar
har dödat min kropp
vi begravde mig i vansätter
på dina föräldrars tomt

uppdatering

She got a pink shirt on
the print says she's hot
she tells me I'm not
but I'm not the one
with the fingers down my throat
and unlike you
I can run in these shoes
these steel-toed boots
will walk all over you
so don't look at me
like I tipped the doorman to get in
you can swirl that guy
around your finger
for the bottle of champange
you're drinking with your friends
I'm pulling back my fifth beer
and I've got the money
to pay for myself, honey
I've paid my dues
and now it's someone elses turn
this witch won't burn

passing by my old school
makes me feel old
we were the children of the revolution
buying youth coulture
on glossy magazine covers
we shaped our misfit-selves
to pass the test
how to be revolutionary
too young to be contemporary
we couldn't wait to leave home
looking for a group of our own
trying to make it into the scene
trying to join the scheme
where are you now?
I don't know how but we
made it out alright









later that day:
1.
he had a never ending supply
of new dirty jokes
you could know him a life time
and never hear him tell the same joke twice
he could drink a bottle of whiskey
and barely even slur
he lived in a house off the main road
they turned of the electricity
so he kept to the living room
he wrote a suicide note
on the back of a lottery ticket
I hope you win,
I'm crossing my fingers
how come we never knew
where he learned to tie a noose


2.
he liked to tell dirty jokes
kept a snare in his backyard
he could drink a bottle of whiskey
and barely even slur

she dressed like a humble bee
cause she liked the way they fly
you could touch your thumb with your forefinger
around her anorexic arm

my sister came home
to find me on the bed
next to empty bottles
of anti-depressants and sleeping pills

where's the womb
where such desperation arose
where's the seed
of so much pain and so little hope

the best of you

why would I give you the best of me
you can have the rest of me
the best is for the people I don't know

the coolest clothes
and the funniest jokes
the sweetest smile
and the clever monolouges
I save it for the poeple I don't know

I don't want the best of you
just give me what's left of you
when you're through with people you don't know