uppdatering på två språk

1.
it can't have been me,
she said
I was out of my mind,
totally
I was doing alright
a little wierd but just fine
how did I end up here
scars on my arms
and pills to spare

I was a cute little girl
in ponytails and a striped dress
I was a shy little girl
how can I be such a mess

don't blame it on my parents
they're nice, they're alright
don't blame it on biology
my sister is doing just fine

this can't be me,
she said
it just shouldn't be
I was a cute little girl once
without a dark cloud
hovering over me
just a shy little girl once
I garantee
missing two front teeth
and with a bruised knee

..I was doing alright
a little wierd but just fine
how did I end up here
scars on my arms
and pills to spare

2.
I drink too much coffee
smoke too many cigarettes
with the taste of last nights beer
still lingering on my tongue
I keep asking what I'm doing here
but it's the only world I know
with my paint-stained,
nicotine-glided fingers
I used to think it was cool
now they're calling on the phone
and they're texting me messages
asking what I'm doing tonight
there's a new club downtown
think we should check it out
so I leave the canvas, leave the dream
and head out for my funeral
lets hope it's atleast obscene
'cause we sit in these bars,
where the beer is cheap
we talk of life and art
and try to be funny
if we can't be smart
have you seen my coffin
I've painted it in the colour of your lips
and someone tagged it on facebook
as the judas and the king
have you seen my coffin
crafted in the latest style
yeah you know it's so DIY
how can we be so broke
and still afford the beer
will we ever even do,
what we've been talking about here
another cigarette and another dream
another cup of coffee and another scheme
welcome to my funeral
atleast it's obscene

3.
Min brorsa säger att allt går med tejp
min pappa säger latex fog

men jag vet,
att allt går
så länge jag har dig

4,
Jag letar förgäves
efter tankar värda att sägas högt
tystnaden fyller min mun
och skapar beläggningar på min tunga
inte ens presidents
nya tandborste
kan ta bort

vi möts, hejar och kramas
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