20090329

it was a nice funeral
the flowers were pretty and walking up to the coffin
she made a scene like you wouldn't believe
it was a nice funeral
I should be burried more often

mixed messages is her speciality
she ate the cake
there's nothing left to keep
she says it was all fake
but now she's lonely
and she doesn't want to be
she calls me up again
that's twice today
am I bleeding
am I looking for someone new?
is what she want to say
I think 'no pain, no gain'
and hang up the phone
look how the plants have grown
the bitterness I planted in the snow
but I've decided to be strong
and this is the time for moving on
when spring is here
a new dawn will appear.



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did you call to have me comfort you
or to see if I felt as bad as you
did you call to pick a fight
or just to kill some time
did you call me to be kind
or to shelter me from the light
did you call to have me comfort you
or to make sure I'm worse off than you?
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stop calling
quit stalling
it's time to go our seperate ways
I'm breaking through
I'm done with you
being done with me
is it really that hard to see?
get out of my mind
you may not like what you'll find
you made your decision
now let me move on
I'm on a one woman mission
so I've got to be strong
I no longer believe
the end of you is the end of me
so stop calling
quit stalling
it's time to go our seperate ways
besides, I'm runing out of nice things to say

20090326

This is not the time for thinking
Keep busy or start sinking
Refurnish the living room
Reorganize the bookshelf
Rearange myself
Burn down our bedroom
Keep the bitterness to a minimum

This is not the time for thinking
Keep busy and start breathing

20090314

en till

jag träffade ditt ex idag
på tunnelbanan på vägen hem
hon förstod och undrade hur allting var
jag sa att jag borde nog ha sett det komma
att gå från den enda till en av många

jag ringde upp mitt ex idag
efter att jag hade kommit hem
hon förstod och undrade hur allting var
sen sa hon att hon borde ha sett det komma
när hon gick från den enda till en av många

så jag ringde upp dig idag
och när du frågade hur allting var
sa jag att jag nu förstår begreppet karma
i den här världen är vi alla den enda
och för de flesta bara en av många

20090312

All of Me

I gave you all of me
now I just wish you'd leave me a note
telling me it will be alright
but we'll never wake up on the other side
of this, the longest night
i can't see how life will be now
but I know from expreience
time will just keep passing by
I really wish you'd give me a call
so I can ask you all the questions
that have no answers in this world
now I'll be just another one
I know and I understand
I really held you close
and I did know you
you sat through this lesson
and now you're out of the other side
i understand, I was just another one
I know you'll find your way through
back to where it all begins again, sometime
with someone else, and I'm sure she'll understand
when you go through to the other side
of another lesson learnt
I really did know you
and I gave you all I knew







bitter version after nine:

you took all of me, all I had
and I gave it all away, everytime
I fought in all of your fights
I held you through your every darkest nights
but it wasn't enough
oh, that's just too though
guess I got in the way of your line of flight
and now all my efforts useless
I thought we were in love
but it was just hell in a fancy dress
I'm watching the fat lady sing
and the bitterness stings
as I take of the engegemant ring